It is
no secret that 72 Land has been pretty quiet over the last summer. To some
extent this is just down to the usual causes: decent weather, other interests,
competing priorities. But the bald fact is that the Land is going through a
fairly difficult stretch. I am well into my third year of unemployment, barring
a few temp positions. Unemployment payments are long gone. We have learned more
than I ever cared to know about not spending any discretionary money. But we are still under
water, and the details of managing that are many and oppressive.
My
last contract as an IT Project Manager ended at Christmas of 2009. I imagine we
all remember what a mess the economy was back then. Well, it has not improved
much in the intervening time period. Yes, the unemployment rate went from 11%
to 8%, but much of that was because of the weird way the feds measure
unemployment. They don't consider how many people are unemployed, they consider
how many people are drawing unemployment payments. Once your benefits expire,
as mine did, you are no longer counted as unemployed, and the rate goes down!
But that does not mean the number of people working has increased. And I hate
their terminology for this: we are those who have "stopped looking". Nobody
has stopped anything; we're just no longer drawing unemployment.
We
have struggled along on my wife's salary, but the truth is that she makes 45%
of what I typically do. So when I went jobless, we lost roughly 60% of our
disposable income. Think about that for a second. Her income covers about 85%
of the monthly recurring bills, but then you have to add food, fuel, medical
expenses (copays and RXs), and any other unanticipated expense. And what
happens when the car needs repair?
Long
gone are the days of books, magazines, vacations, or stash expansion. Much the exact
opposite in fact. I've been trying to sell things via ebay to help make ends
come a bit closer together, and to try and feel a bit less useless in keeping
us solvent. That is a painful process. It's like selling your kids (though in
my experience kids tend to generate spending rather than profits...) At first
it was things I probably wasn't going to build anyway: the odd 1:32 kit, a few
1:48 examples left over from The Supply Depot stock, some armor that I had
amassed in the 30 years I have been modelling. But as the crisis continues the
cuts get closer to the bone. The KMC 727 is gone, the Fliegerhorst G-38 is
gone, my selection of Hasegawa Beaufighters is up for bid, my complete
20-volume set of Classic Publications Luftwaffe Colours / Jagdwaffe books is
gone. And the bloodletting looks to continue for the foreseeable future. But it
is never quite enough.
Oh, I
do still do interviews. Second, even third interviews (where you have to figure
that they are evaluating finalists). But no offers. I even apply for stuff I am
massively overqualified for, like data entry or retail positions. But those
employers don't want to waste time and money training someone who will likely
bolt as soon as the economy improves. And be fair, they are probably right.
I'm
far from alone. You can hear the cry on various boards, forums, or discussion
groups. There are a lot of people, experienced professionals, unable to find
work. Like an ebay sale, getting a job is a two-party transaction. If one party
doesn't agree, for any conceivable reason, it will not happen. This is not a
political discussion, but we live in a very business-unfriendly environment
right now, and businesses will not expand when they are feeling pressured.
Not to
bring everyone down, but I thought it was incumbent on me to give some insight
as to why you weren't getting the every-other-day posts that I was managing for
a while. There are just many days where I can't conjure the enthusiasm to stick
plastic bits together, even though as a hobby, it is supposed to relieve stress
rather than perpetuate it. But sometimes you just get a visit from Churchill's
black dog, and the production line stops.
But
let's end on a brighter note. On Sunday night I actually got the airbrush out
for a short painting session. And I seem to be on the verge of finishing a
decal job. No one is going to confuse it with a contest winner, but against all
odds, I may actually finish a model this summer.
